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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 00:11

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Ive learnt so much.

Who is Meghan Markle and why is she so controversial on the Internet?

My family never makes their pension either.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

What's your love story?

I will be 64.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Why do men want to suck dick?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I don,t even have a pension.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Why would Joseph Smith say that polygamy was God's law?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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She wouldn,t have been !

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Does eating bread before bed make you fat? If so, why?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

We all went to grammer schools

My stepdaughter’s mom tells her I’m not a real dance teacher, but my stepdaughter has seen me in action. Why does she still question my abilities?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

And i lived it daily.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Just sitting at home with this huge cock. Who can take care of it for me?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

One cannot live in the past .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

What do you think of a parent telling their adult child to “keep their personal life to themselves” in relation to talking to them? No reason they should say that it was mean what should I do?

I was 9 years of age.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But, we were locked up after school.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

My life is so biszare .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As i do to all so called friends.?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She married twice! .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I think the readers, may guess!

She was in good health!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Especially a lifetime of it.

So whats the point in blame.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I could never make a relationship work though!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Put me off passion for life!!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I waited trembling.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He knew the spot.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

It was going to be , some day.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But ive been too sick for many years..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I have no regrets .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Who then, do I blame.?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I said to her

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I write beautiful poetry .

Was to survive, this bastard.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

All the time i was locked up.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

So, i spoilt her more .

I never cut or harmed myself..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But it wasn’t much.

We were not on the streets..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He resisted the act ,that day.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I couldn’t, believe it.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She loved him until the end.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Im still living with it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

What did i know ?

I was seconnd youngest,

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Comes on , in middle age.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

This is soul school!.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

She found it foreign!.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Would this be the day?

When she asked me how she looked .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I was very sick at this time too.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I was scared of men, in general

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

This is how, and why children get BPD.